I just wanted to give you a (((((((HUG)))))))) and let you know that it is okay to celebrate privately. Here's hoping all goes well for you!

Ill say a prayer for you all. And congratulations!

I've been where you are and you have my thoughts and prayers.

I would suggest telling maybe the family & friends you can trust to keep quiet. They'll already know your history and the reasons why - and can be a big source of moral support.

I also had a similar story.......my first pregnancy I told everyone under the sun that I was pregnant, and when I miscarried twins, I had an awful lot of updating to do. Sometimes I still bump into old students that ask how old my child is. It's still difficult when it resurfaces.

This current pregnancy, I was so nervous to tell anyone, and even more nervous to allow myself to be excited, for fear of being disappointed again. I think it's a very natural and human reaction. I told my immediate family, a few select close friends and my boss, and that was it. Once I had reached about 12 weeks, I made a formal announcement at work and to my friends and students. After a few encouraging sonograms, I felt safer breaking the news. And once everyone learned the news, they were all so excited and happy for me, it helped me relax and start to feel excited too. Now that I am almost in my third trimester and feeling the baby move regularly, I'm so much more relaxed. This pregnancy is going well, and the baby is very healthy.

Find a happy medium for you. It's good to be able to share your worries and have support during the early weeks, especially with your past experiences. My guideline was, only tell the people I see on a regular basis and are very close to me. That way, I didn't have to worry about bumping into co-workers, students, or casual acquaintances later and re-hashing a whole sad story. When you feel the time is right, you'll know when you are ready to tell everyone.

My heart goes out to you and I truly understand what you are feeling. Find some support and take extra care of yourself, don't let stress get the best of you. Hang in there and best of luck.